It’s been years since I’ve written a post so in the words of Jay-Z… allow me to re-introduce myself, my name is Brie! A single thirty-something living in Boston anddd I’m stuck. I’ve tried to think of other words to describe where I’m at but that one keeps coming back to me. Do you ever feel stuck? Like you’re going through motions – you wake up, go to work (or in my case, walk from the bedroom to the couch), close one screen just to stream Netflix on a bigger screen, maybe wash a dish (probably not), and go to bed… alone… just to wake up and do it all over again?! That’s me. Every. Single. Day.
Now don’t get me wrong, for all intents and purposes, I have a good life. I have a really great family, amazing friends, a good job (two actually!), my own apartment, I’m healthy. I want for nothing. But, yup here comes the but… something’s missing, I don’t feel fulfilled.
At 33, I have a very hard time avoiding the comparison game. Seeing my friends and most people around me in happy relationships, many blessed with beautiful families. I want that. Certainly never thought I’d be single at this point in my life. Am I the only one in this situation, feeling this way? Of course not. But do I feel like I am? Next question…
I spend 40+ hours a week doing a job that I don’t love. Now I understand that not everyone loves their jobs, most can at least tolerate them though. Me? I can’t even “fake it til I make it” anymore. But when I admit that I don’t like my job, or career I should say, the obvious next question is “what do I want to do?” And my answer? I have no idea!
So, here I am, back to being unfulfilled. But what am I going to do about it? I came across a quote recently and if this wasn’t the kick in the bum that I needed, I don’t know what is. It reads:
“Start now. Start where you are. Start with fear. Start with pain. Start with doubt. Start with hands shaking. Start with voice trembling, but start. Start and don’t stop. Start where you are, with what you have. Just… Start.”
This resonated with me so much so that I made it the home screen on my phone. In my face, in black in white, every time I pick up my phone, which is at least 100 times a day… I have to START! One step at a time, one foot in front of the other. And what do I have to start with? Well I already told you but it’s definitely worth repeating – A great family, amazing friends, and a good job. I have the support and the means, it’s time I got out of my own way.
This blog is going to be my accountability partner, my journal of the steps I take, the things I find joy in, the dating failures (hopefully at least one success, ha!) and the new adventures… all of it. So buckle up and enjoy the (most likely bumpy) ride, I know I sure will! Here goes…
Outfit details can be found on my LIKEtoKNOW.it – sweater set is from Express and true to size, I’m wearing a medium in both top and bottom! Shoes are a special find from my solo trip to Paris – I can’t find them online for you, sorry!